When I took this picture, I was the most pragmatic and antispiritual person on the earth. I never would have imagined the revolution that will happen in my mind a few months later.

I took it at Ueno Park in Tokyo. It was last October and I was enjoying my first experiences with my camera. I had been looking for something nice to exercise on depth of field. Burning incense sticks seemed just perfect, even a bit poetic. I remember getting closer to a few people that were praying. They seemed a bit bothered by my behaviour. I didn't want to be disrespectful, however, I really couldn't see anything beyond some sticks burning and standing people whispering their thoughts to the nothingness.

Then, a few months later, I burnt out. I found myself unable to do any of the things I used to do before. I had to build a new life from scratch. Obviously I focused on what seemed more essential to me: being productive, result-oriented, being able to read fast and produce even faster. I didn't feel any need for spirituality. Nevertheless, this summer offered me an opportunity for another birth.
One night, during a thunderstorm, I discovered a connection with nature that I had never felt before. I heard a loud thunder and felt the wind on my skin and for the first time I felt I was made of the same essence as rain, lightnings, plants. I remember it was so weird to feel part of the universe. I couldn't believe my own feelings.
Since then, this feeling of connection is part of me. I learnt to accept it and enjoy it. It makes me feel so complete, vulnerable but powerful at the same time.
This picture was just a meaningless exercise then. Today it symbolizes a milestone in my life. Today it reminds me of the long path I went through before getting where I am. And to be patient, as things in life don't always show their meanings immediately.

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